that is so old.
when i was a kid, i used to be really excited about my "golden birthday" (turning 31 on may 31st, a thing only kids seem to celebrate) but now that it's coming up, i'm just finding it depressing.
also, i have this feeling of total dichotomy: my friends and family have been so absent lately that either a surprise party is in the works OR no one gives a shit at all about my birthday and they have more important things to do.
it's most likely the latter.
i have more to update but the birthday black cloud of despair is looming above my head at the moment.